I don't know what to say.
Like you, there is a tremendous amount of grief on my heart and I'm doing my best to honor this dark feeling while still searching for light and beauty in the world, during this magical time of year. It's not easy.
Here in Connecticut, every town is close, we are a tiny state. Since Friday I have heard from four separate people that are closely linked to those who lost their lives. In many ways, it feels like 9/11 all over again. Everybody knows somebody who knows somebody...
I see fellow bloggers and facebook friends posting the most hopeful, positive reflections, talking about everyday life again - moving forward. I'm just not there yet. I feel a certain amount of shame in that, given the yogi within and all. I'm sorry I don't have any perfect wisdom to share, I'm still searching for it myself. I know time will heal.
Right now, my heart quietly shatters for Newtown, over and over again.
On Friday, a few minutes before the news was national, I posted a link on Facebook from a local news station about the shootings. The only information given at that time was that the school was in lockdown and a woman had been shot in the foot. Imagine. My friend and former Simple Homeschool editor, Jamie, left a comment, "Right down the street, Heather." Oh no. I asked her if Sandy Hook would be the school her three children would attend if they were not homeschooling. "Yes," she said. "Seriously sobering."
(Neither Jamie nor I homeschool from a place of fear, but the gratitude for being safe and under one roof on Friday could not be denied.)
Jamie, usually private to the world about her exact location, shared about her community of Newtown, Connecticut this morning.
Today, we all continue to feel deeply and navigate carefully. We pray and send love to the community of Newtown. We walk tenderly, love each other completely, and let tears flow as they need to.
This day, is everything.
I want you to know how much I appreciate your kindness and understanding. Last Friday I was scheduled to open registration for the winter session of Whole Food Kitchen, I just couldn't do it. I thought today I'd be able to, but I'm not there. I will quietly open it up tomorrow however... I know many of you are looking to tuck gift certificates for this healing program under the tree for your loved ones. You will be able to do that tomorrow. Just return here in the morning and I'll have all the details for you. Thank you for everything. xo